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Monday, February 22, 2021
The Naughty Chair
Monday, September 7, 2020
Caught Playing With Myself
What she doesn't understand is that I might really need it and then if I ask her and she says no or not now or whatever, I still have a hard little problem. It isn't like I can be rejected and then slink off to do my business. I don't think she likes that at all. Sometimes relief is better than taking the risk.
The problem is that if she wants some lovin' from me but I'm not ready, willing, and able, that is bad too. Ideally, she would like me ready for sex all the times she wants sex but for me to just calm down when she isn't in the mood.
The scene played out in my head all day making my penis hard and head foggy. I had seen a picture of a male transvestite trying to stroke his penis. S/he was hairless with small breasts and hips that flared like a woman's. The pale penis and testicles were flaccid, soft, and small like a boys. This beautiful creature invaded my thoughts. I imagined gently sucking on that delicate penis/clitoris. Something about the feminine beauty and the male genitals had me confused and aroused.
I found myself home and alone with an erection that was almost painful. At first, I went to the bathroom for a quickie but once my pants were down, I got braver. I undressed and decided that I should be more comfortable so I left my clothes in the bathroom and got naked into bed. I found the lube in the nightstand and got some tissues ready for cleanup purposes.
At some point, I had missed the telltale sounds of my wife coming home. She realized something was amiss and was standing right at our bedroom door as I made my naked entrance, got comfortable, lubed up my member, and prepared myself for a little self relief.
Admittedly there is no way to announce that you are watching someone masturbate that is anything besides jarring. Still, she was upset because to her, it looked like I was taking more care to make love to myself than I usually do to make love to her. Also, as I got started, I was very much enjoying myself. In fact, for all my preparations, I wasn't going to last a minute.
She walked in and I, of course, froze. I spoke first and said, as one could imagine, the stupidest thing possible: "Oh, I didn't know you were home." Like, why would that matter?
Worse yet, my penis just pulsed in my hand. I wasn't ready to pop yet, but the lack of more stimulation was annoying to the little fella.
I will spare you the lecture she gave me which didn't really make much sense but when one is naked in bed with a luxuriously lubricated erection thinking about nuzzling the tender penis of a tranny, it is really not the right time to argue. The upshot was that she was mad, hurt, and offended. Her solution to all of this was to spank me.
This happens sometimes. Spankings hurt and she can really deliver the heat but I get sort of aroused by spanking. She knows that sometimes spankings can be a real turn-on for me but she knows that once my penis goes soft after I ejaculate, I am just the saddest sorriest and most contrite little boy ever.
Truth is that if I know I am going to be spanked after I orgasm, the fear of how much that spanking is going to hurt makes the orgasm just amazing. I am almost thankful for how bad it hurts because I know that I'll take the fear into my next spanking and it will fuel my next orgasm. It is a feedback loop of pleasure and pain. The more severe the spanking, the better my orgasm; it doesn't even matter which order anymore.
Getting caught masturbating, however, was new ground. I wasn't sure but I didn't think she was going to want me to enjoy my orgasm this time. She also knew I wasn't going to 'appreciate' my spanking unless that pesky hardness was gone. Clearly, I had a problem.
"Get up," she ordered as she dropped her purse. "I am going to give you such a spanking," she mused kicking off her shoes.
I struggled to my feet. It was tricky with one hand covered in lube. I ended up standing awkwardly with my erect penis bobbing lewdly as I tried to think of something to say. Nothing came and I just stood there stupidly.
She disappeared into the closet but was back in what seemed like seconds with the hairbrush in her hand. My penis bobbed approvingly for some reason. She just tsk-tsk'd annoyingly and sat down on the chair that 9 out of 10 times is where I get my spankings. She didn't say anything but just waved me over.
I shuffled over and expected to go right over her lap but when I got next to her, she said, "OK, you better finish up." I looked confused. "Go ahead, get it over with. Hurry up."
As aroused and scared as I was, I was also self-conscious. Nervously my lubed hand met my slippery already lubed up erection and started making the motions that I had been making since I was twelve. My knees buckled right away but I didn't want to look like I was enjoying myself too much. Still, it felt awesome and the tingles that feel so good just before I pop started in my belly.
I tried so hard to not look like I was enjoying myself but that made it just build slower. The slow build was amazing and the tingles spread down my legs and across my bottom. I knew that just seconds after I had my little fun, that delicious tingle across my bottom was going to replaced by just blinding pain. The thought propelled my orgasm forward and almost without warning, I exploded. Neither of us had really thought that part through and I sprayed all over the skirt covering her lap before catching the last little bit in my already sticky hand.
She didn't look at all happy. "What a mess. Oh well, you get to lay in it. Come on, get over."
My knees buckled as I climbed over being careful to not make more of a mess. I carefully protected my right hand and navigated clumsily with my left. My post orgasm weakness didn't help me be any more coordinated.
I was only over her lap for a second before the hard wood of the hairbrush tapped gently on my right cheek. With a sigh the wood disappeared and with no warm up, she was in full swing. The pleasure of the moment before disappeared entirely and was replaced by first a ferocious sting and then a bonfire. She spanked hard, fast, and covered every bit of the pale skin of my bottom methodically. I knew she wouldn't be done until it was all bright red.
For my part, I was as brave as I could be. I tried not to kick but I kicked. I tried not to complain but I protested like a little boy. I didn't bother trying not to cry. The tears poured out of my eyes like the semen had from my penis just seconds before.
She stopped when her anger was spent. I was done kicking and my words were just wailing. I was truly sorry. I had been a naughty little boy but I had been spanked clean.
Wednesday, September 2, 2020
One Boy's Journey -- Part 7
Disclaimer: This is a story of fantasy and is not only not intended to condone or approve of the behaviors contained herein, there is absolutely nothing about treating children as sexual objects that the author approves of, desires, or would dream of doing to an actual child. This work is written in the context of age based role play.
If you cannot understand this, have difficulty distinguishing fantasy from reality, or are in any way confused about what is appropriate and legal sexual expression, stop reading now.
Lastly, I am not a pedophile, don't approve of sexually assaulting children, and only use these themes in my writing because I empathize and identify with the victims of these stories; not the perpetrators. Some of us like to be embarrassed, ashamed, humiliated, spanked, and to be nervous, anxious, and afraid. Weird, right? To read more about why these stories were written, please see the "What This Blog is and is NOT -- READ THIS FIRST" post.
One Boy's Journey -- Part 4
Disclaimer: This is a story of fantasy and is not only not intended to condone or approve of the behaviors contained herein, there is absolutely nothing about treating children as sexual objects that the author approves of, desires, or would dream of doing to an actual child. This work is written in the context of age based role play.
If you cannot understand this, have difficulty distinguishing fantasy from reality, or are in any way confused about what is appropriate and legal sexual expression, stop reading now.
Lastly, I am not a pedophile, don't approve of sexually assaulting children, and only use these themes in my writing because I empathize and identify with the victims of these stories; not the perpetrators. Some of us like to be embarrassed, ashamed, humiliated, spanked, and to be nervous, anxious, and afraid. Weird, right? To read more about why these stories were written, please see the "What This Blog is and is NOT -- READ THIS FIRST" post.
Tuesday, September 1, 2020
One Boy's Journey -- Part 2
Disclaimer: This is a story of fantasy and is not only not intended to condone or approve of the behaviors contained herein, there is absolutely nothing about treating children as sexual objects that the author approves of, desires, or would dream of doing to an actual child. This work is written in the context of age based role play.
If you cannot understand this, have difficulty distinguishing fantasy from reality, or are in any way confused about what is appropriate and legal sexual expression, stop reading now.
Lastly, I am not a pedophile, don't approve of sexually assaulting children, and only use these themes in my writing because I empathize and identify with the victims of these stories; not the perpetrators. Some of us like to be embarrassed, ashamed, humiliated, spanked, and to be nervous, anxious, and afraid. Weird, right? To read more about why these stories were written, please see the "What This Blog is and is NOT -- READ THIS FIRST" post.
Monday, August 31, 2020
Caught Masturbating
If you cannot understand this, have difficulty distinguishing fantasy from reality, or are in any way confused about what is appropriate and legal sexual expression, stop reading now.
Lastly, I am not a pedophile, don't approve of sexually assaulting children, and only use these themes in my writing because I empathize and identify with the victims of these stories; not the perpetrators. Some of us like to be embarrassed, ashamed, humiliated, spanked, and to be nervous, anxious, and afraid. Weird, right? To read more about why these stories were written, please see the "What This Blog is and is NOT -- READ THIS FIRST" post.
Confused?
I confuse spanking and sex inside me. For me, a spanking prolongs my arousal. The pleasure and pain mix in my head. I don’t actually like spanking for discipline if the offensive is anything besides being turned on by spanking. What is more shameful than being sexually excited when one is going to be punished?
I am warned before the spanking—long before. I will be punished merely because I want the spanking. I know I am supposed to dread this but instead I look forward to it. I’m hard all the time and oozing pre-cum into my underwear. At work, I am constantly hiding an erection. Driving is difficult because I get distracted thinking about what is to come. When I rarely soften, I feel the cool wetness that coats the head of my penis. I wonder if anyone else can see it. Did I ooze enough to soak through my underwear and my jeans? I’m ashamed to have to check. I wonder if other men are driving home right now with their attention distracted, their members erect, their bottoms tingling, worried that if a cop stops them, they will still be erect when he comes to the door?
She makes me wait at home. I explain that I’ve been hard all day thinking about the spanking and ask if I could take off my pants because the erection is uncomfortable. She thinks this is cute and she agrees. I was going to leave my underwear on but my briefs are so stained that I opt to just be naked from the waist down. Naked. Sex happens when I’m naked.
Naked is sex. Sex can only happen when people are naked. I’m naked now and my sex organ is ready to consummate. It craves its release and oozes more pre-cum in preparation for penetration. The head is a sticky mess from the day but the new pre-cum flows freely down the shaft. My wife chuckles when she sees me. She is amused that I think I am going to have sex. I’m not. My penis will be inches from her vagina but will not gain access. Her mouth and bottom will be off limits as well. She might touch me but she will probably just make me touch myself.
We eat dinner and I soften a little during preparation, eating and cleaning. Once we are finished, I am hard again and anxious. I hope that she doesn’t want to watch TV before my spanking. I need my release so I ask if she is going to spank me now. She tells me that she does want to watch some TV and that there just isn’t time to really punish me before the show starts. I try not to plead but the disappoint shows on my face.
“Well, maybe we can get started at least,” she says and reaches for a wooden spoon. She picks a light one that I know won’t hurt very much. Then she sits down on the couch in front of the TV and beacons me over. She positions me between her knees facing to her left. She makes me take off my shirt so that now I’m completely naked. My penis sticks straight out not knowing that she is going to ignore him. Instead, she cups my left cheek. She teases me with pats and scraping her fingers down my crack. She is paying attention to me and that is good. My penis bobs his approval and oozes more pre-cum that will go to waste.
She spanks me standing with her hand. She knows this is my least favorite position because my penis isn’t touching her or anything. It doesn’t hurt very much but causes me to “fuck” the air in front of me lewdly. She switches to the spoon. It is a light spoon and also won’t really hurt. She is teasing me. I have no sexual gratification in this position unless I spontaneously orgasm. I’m aroused but not that aroused. It wouldn’t take much attention to my member for me to cum, and she knows this. This part of the spanking is just to tease and embarrass me. When she decides the show is going to start, she stops. “I’m going to watch this show. Go stand someplace where I don’t have to look at your dirty penis.”
The next half hour is more torture. Now my bottom tingles. It has had a taste of the pain to come. My penis is still not satisfied and I know that being aroused this long will create a copious and probably wonderful orgasm. I want it so bad but I don’t dare touch myself.
The show ends and I hope that this means that she will finish my spanking, let me cum, and give me my painful release.
“I suppose I should probably give you the rest of your punishment now. I see your penis is still hard. What a silly man: all ready for sex but going to get a spanking instead. Tell you what, let’s just pretend I—or anyone—am going to have sex with you. Go get our KY.”
I go to the bedroom and retrieve from my night stand the KY to bring back to her. I’ll be back here a couple more times since this is where we keep the spanking implements. Once in front of her again, she instructs me to lube myself up: “I want you all shiny and oily. Don’t forget your testicles.” I am careful not to stimulate myself and I comply with a generous amount all over my sex. “If we were going to have sex, I am probably a little over dressed. I am going to go get undressed. You wait here.”
More waiting. I’m standing in the living room of the house I own naked and erect. My wife returns not naked but wearing lingerie that exposes her breasts and vagina. She is beautiful and appears also ready to consummate our marriage. “How would you like to have sex, dear?” she asks seductively. “Do you want to take me like a caveman—just throw me over the couch and fuck my pussy? Or my ass? Or do you want me to suck the cum out of you? Or do you want to be romantic and gently make love to me?”
These are trick questions but I answer that I would like to make love to her very much. “Please let me make love to you. You don’t have to spank me. I’ll do it real good, I promise,” I plead.
“No, I don’t think so. Your penis is hard, but I don’t think it will do the trick for me tonight. I think you are going to cum too soon and not make me happy. What I think will make me happy is spanking you. Hard. And a lot. I’m going to spank all the nasty cum right out of you and then I am going keep right on spanking you till you cry. Now, let’s spank that erection down a little so that we don’t make a mess in our living room.”
I knew I wasn’t going to have sex but she was so cruel. She even fingered herself a little. She walked past me into the kitchen. “Get in here,” she commanded and I walked my glistening bobbing penis into the room with her. She was already picking out a much more sturdy spoon. “Just bend over the counter there,” she pointed, “and we’ll have that naughty erection all taken care of in just a couple minutes.”
I bent over the counter and presented my still tingling bottom to my wife. She slapped my bottom a couple times with her hand and then I felt the wood of the spoon as she positioned it on her target. It was removed, a pause, and then the first real sting of night. Finally, I was getting my spanking and I was almost relived that it was starting. She spanked hard and fast. The pain built quickly and I started to squirm. I looked down to see my penis starting to droop but even as I looked, another drop of hopeful pre-cum appeared.
My wife likes to end spankings by concentrating on one cheek for a dozen swats, then the other for another dozen and then alternating again for the climax. This hurts so bad that I almost cry every time. She started on my left cheek until it was on fire and then set fire to my right. I was in distress for sure as she started alternating for the climax. Sex wasn’t on my mind as the last spanks hit. Instead, I was concentrating on a burning and stinging that overwhelmed my bottom. It seemed to burn right into my crack.
“OK, stand up. Let’s see if you are still a big man” she commanded. On shaky legs I stood and turned around to show my now only partially erect member to her. “Now you look like a bad little boy. You look like a little boy now and not like a man at all. Little boys don’t have sex with women. Little boys masturbate and get spankings. Let’s go watch you masturbate. That will be fun, won’t it?” she said putting down the spoon. “Come on. Off to the bathroom where you masturbate,” she chided.
I like bathroom spankings because they remind me of being spanked as a child. Those weren’t good memories but at least being naked and in the bathroom hearing the spanks echo off the tile is familiar and seems like the way it is supposed to be. That is where bad boys get their medicine. When I learned about masturbation, the bathroom, because of its privacy was the logical place. One day, I masturbated in the bathroom in the morning and was spanked in it by mom in the afternoon.
My wife led me to the bathroom. Her pristine and perfect white bottom beckoned me to follow. I knew mine wasn’t pale white like her’s anymore. She sat on the toilet, told me to close the door behind me (just like when a mother wants privacy while she spanks her naughty child) and motioned for me to stand by her right side. As I gazed at her aroused sex between her spread legs she said, “OK, let’s see you masturbate you bad boy.”
I don’t like to masturbate in front of my wife. She knows this and she also knows that it will take more and more arousal for me to handle the next spanking sessions. My erection was returning on its own but I helped it along. My normal style is thumb on top and two fingers below. I grasped of my member and started sliding up and down. I was so slippery from the KY that it was hard to not slide off. But it felt wonderful and I sucked in breath from the surprise of instant pleasure. It didn’t take long before I started to lose control. I imagined what it would be like to spray cum all over my surprised wife. She was watching as I rapidly was approaching an orgasm. “Stop” she demanded “Stop now” she repeated when I didn’t immediately take my hand away. I was so close. Just a little more and the tension would be released. I wanted it so bad.
“Was that fun?” she said and I nodded. “I bet it was. This isn’t about you having fun though. This is about you getting your punishment. So, get down over my knee and I’m going to spank you like the little boy you are.”
I bent over her thighs and reached to touch the floor on the other side. She kept her legs spread enough so that my erection hung freely between them. It pulsed as if it was trying to reach her pussy that was just inches away. I realized that this might be as close as my erection would get to her sex all night. My testicles were still in a tight little package like they always become just before I orgasm. I looked up and watch a drop of pre-cum slowly drip off the end of my angry erection.
She spanked me with her hand but after the spoon spanking it was enough. Soon I was that bad little boy being spanked in the bathroom while my sister listened through the door or I was that awkward teenager that got an inappropriate erection while being spanked in this exact same position in this same kind of room. The spanks echoed around me. Every squeak I made was amplified. I was so ashamed when I started squirming from just a little hand spanking. But it hurt. Whenever I got a bathroom spanking, it hurt and I usually cried. She started into the climax progression and I started to feel the usual distress and panic of a spanking that hurts too much to bear. The alternating spanks after she set fire to each of my cheeks went on longer than I expected and I started to make a lot of noise.
Then she was finished and she told me I could get up. My penis was again drooping but not soft. A few drops of pre-cum glistened on the tile floor where I had dripped. “You can clean those up, I think” she said. I got a tissue and bent over to wiped them up from the floor between her knees. Of course, I caught a glimpse between her thighs. Her lips were parted like they get when she is excited and she smelled musky. My genitals ignored the fire crackling on my bottom and started working to prepare me for sex again.
“Well, little boy, I think it is time we got out the hairbrush for you. I like how the hairbrush makes you dance. Let’s go into the bedroom for this part.”
Again she led and I followed her bottom into the room where we usually have sex. My penis was again hopeful as the man and wife walked into the room where they normally copulate. “Kneel of the bed facing the headboard” she commanded. This is another of my least favorite positions. She walked over to my night stand as I got into position and instead of taking out the hairbrush, she grabbed a small paddle. “Let’s just make sure you aren’t still thinking I’m going to have sex with you. I promise I’ll spank you with the hairbrush next.”
This wasn’t much of a consolation. Apparently she thought that I needed a paddling before my brushing.
The position where I kneel facing the headboard is like standing up for spanking except that I can sort of lean against the headboard and the wall. “OK, I want to hold yourself up with your left hand and hold onto your naughty penis with your right. But no masturbating.” I did as I was told and was rewarded with a paddle crack across both cheeks that immediately lit a fire. My hand on my penis—even if I wasn’t actively masturbating--was good and the jerk that I did to escape the paddle impact gave me some stimulation.
She spanked me with the paddle probably a dozen times and it started to really hurt. I wasn’t sure how I was going to handle the brush after this. “OK, that was fun. How is your penis now? Still ready for sex or has he figured out that isn’t going to happen? Take your hand away and let me see.”
My penis was mostly hard again and shamefully glistening with the KY and all the pre-cum. “OK, I guess we will just have to solve that problem with the brush then.” She said. “Move over and let me sit down.” I did and she sat down with her legs out straight. “Get me your hairbrush and the KY again.” I had to go out to the living room to get the KY which is a long walk when you are naked, have a throbbing erection and a burning bottom. When I got back from parading through the house, I handed her the KY and then got her my hairbrush.
“OK, kneel right her” she said patting the bed to her right. “Good, now put some more KY on your penis; it looks a little dry and I think we are going to want it very slippery for this spanking.” I did as I was told and my member nodded approval for the attention. “Now, over you go. Put your sticky sex right here on mama’s legs. That’s it. You feel so hard against my legs. Such a big man about to get a spanking like a little boy. You just cry into your pillow and we’ll have this nasty hard penis all small like the little boy you are in no time. That will be nice, won’t it? Nice and soft and none of those filthy sexy thoughts anymore.”
Then she started spanking me with her hand. There was already a burn from the paddle so this stings more than a hand spanking should but not unbearably. It is like it wakes up the sting that was already there and gives me a sort of hopeful feeling that I will be able to handle the spanking. This is by design—my wife’s evil designs, actually—as it will be enough to arouse me but not distract from the good feelings in my genitals. I twitch a little and the friction across the head of penis as it moves slightly over her thigh catches my complete attention. I am so lubed up that there really is very little sensation. It is wet, slippery and sloppy between my erection and her legs. Even my testicles slip and slide over the right side of her right thigh.
“You want to pretend you’re having sex, don’t you? You want to hump on my legs? Like that time when you were in high school and you dry-humped that girl and came all over your underwear. Remember how you had to tell her what happened? How you were pretending to have sex with her and while you were only making out.” She loved taunting me.
This really happened when I was only fifteen. We were just making out and somehow I got positioned with my legs wrapped around her left leg. It was summer and we were both wearing shorts so it was only my shorts and underwear between me and her bare leg. It took almost no time because I was so excited by kissing and hugging this beautiful girl. She tasted so good and her soft, warm body was nothing like mine.
We re-situated a little and suddenly there was contact and she sort of tensed up a little like she wasn’t sure what to think about this boy’s teenage erection pressing against her. I also tensed up but not for the same reason; it felt good. I couldn’t help it and I humped against her leg. It felt better than good and I shivered into the kiss that was rapidly falling apart. It felt too good and I did it again. I was going in for the third hump when I opened my eyes to see her looking at me curiously. I arched forward involuntarily and came inside my boxers while staring her right in the eyes. The poor girl was looking into my eyes as she felt me pulsing against her leg. I groaned, closed my eyes, and convulsed slightly. When I came out of my orgasm, I realized with horror what I had just done and quickly pulled away from the scared girl. She was a year younger than me and I knew that she was less serious than me. She just started asking half questions like “was that your thing?” and “Did you just?” and finally ended with some word like “yuck”. I don’t know which one of us was more traumatized. I told my wife this years ago and she thought it was cute how ashamed I was. I explained that it was very confusing because it felt so good but was such a shameful act. I mean, I basically had a sexual experience—my first sexual experience—against a girl who didn’t know it was happening only to completely lose control almost immediately and make a mess in my underwear. I felt like it said something about me being a pervert or bad lover or something.
Later, one night, we were out in the park looking at a meteor shower and I sort of rolled over, wrapped myself around my wife, and kissed her. I started to get erect and playfully humped against her. “What do you say we do it right here in the park?” I teased. “I don’t think that is a good idea.” She said with the seriousness of a heart attack. But I was sort of turned on by my own silly idea. I mean, we were all alone in this park with no lights. It would be so exciting to just have a quick little screw right where everyone could see us. So, I kept humping her. “Come on. It’ll be fun,” I whispered. “No way, I’m not in the mood at all. If you want to get your rocks off, I’ll lay her while you do it but I am not taking my pants off in this park,” she harshly whispered back. “Maybe I will,” I snapped back sounding all hurt.
That got her angry. “Yeah, you will. Right now. Just like this. You can make a mess in your underwear if you want. Whenever we do these little adventures, I always end up sitting in your gross stuff for hours. You do it this time. We’ll see how you like it. Come on. Do it. Get it over with,” she barked and started squirming against me. I was scared and that was exciting so I started rutting against my wife. “That’s it. Think what people would think if they saw you like this. They’d think you were sick. That you have a problem. Or that you are such an inadequate lover that your wife won’t even have sex with you. Come on, make your little mess. I am so going to make you sleep in that pair of underwear tonight. You can just wear them to work tomorrow too. You might as well remember how well you pleased your wife sexually tonight,” she chanted sarcastically.
Then—in my mind—I saw what I looked like: a grown man, clothed, and humping a fully clothed, disinterested woman. I was just a bundle of uncontrolled hormones that needed to cum so bad that he was willing to do it in his own underwear. I had a shame-filled orgasm and convulsed against her. She waited until I was finished and then with a smirk, said “you all done now? I’d like to get back to looking at the stars if you don’t need me anymore.” She was in character because she knew it worked for me. She puts up with a lot.
Here I was again: face down across my wife’s lap selfishly being punished for being, well, selfish. She probably wanted to have sex with me but knew that it would end too soon and that I need to get my spankings every now and then. She would get something later. But now, now she was just making her sick husband do his dirty business. Men have needs and men are pigs.
It felt good and it was going to end soon unless she turned on the heat. Almost like she read my mind, she moved to the hairbrush. My hairbrush has a hardwood back and its head is about five inches long and three inches wide. Wherever it lands, it creates little elliptical patches of fire. She didn’t spank hard or fast but just enough to sting me away from a premature orgasm. The delay was probably only for a minute or two but it was enough to bring me back from the brink and make me have to work harder to get back over the edge.
The hairbrush made me dance a little more which probably looked to her like I was just humping for the sake of humping. “That’s it. Do your little dirty thing.<spank> Make your little pee-pee feel good.<spank> Are you going to have your little cummy?<spank> Oh, that so cute.<spank,spank> Little baby wants to have a big boy cum.<spank> Make all those little sperms come out.<spank, spank> You can do it. <spank> Come for mommy.<spank, spank>…” she taunted. I did feel like a little boy and all my sexual and spanking misadventures rattled around in my head. One time I got an erection in the showers at school. Another time I came trying to put the condom on. I got a spanking from my mom and was erect from the time I pulled down my pants to the time I was sent to the corner. I was too young to know what it meant or be embarrassed but when I was teenager, during a spanking I got hard between her legs and kept bumping the tip of my erection into the inside of her left leg. I didn’t want to think about it at the time, but there was probably a pre-cum wet spot on her pants.
Still spanking between the taunts, she continued: “I bet it feels so good against your little soldier. He’s so cute how he wants to be all big and stuff. One day, maybe some girl will touch him. He’s too small for that now. Oh, are going to make your little cummy now? Your little cum-cum. You going to squirt a little?” I nodded. I was close. “Go ahead. I won’t spank you hard until you have your little squirt. Its OK. I won’t make you cry until it is all over. Come on, baby. You can do it. That’s my little boy. Make mommy proud.”
It was a good cum just like I thought it would be. My humping got faster and the humps shorter, and then I froze for a second before collapsing on her lap as the semen pumped out of my body. “See, I knew you could do,” and immediately, she started spanking me fast and hard. At first, I was still feeling the pleasure of the orgasm so the spanking didn’t immediately hurt but then, it suddenly chased my orgasm away and the post-coital relaxation betrayed me by making me too weak to fight it physically or emotionally.
“I can’t believe the mess you made. Do you think girls like this? Do you think this is sexy? Do you think I like having cum all over my legs?” she lectured. The pain was building intolerably and I knew she was going to make me cry. Sixty seconds or so after my orgasm, I let out a ‘ooooo’ sound and started to cry softly. “Oh my God, are you crying? What a baby you are! Are you sad that your little pee-pee is so small? Or are you sad that you only make little boy cum-cum? Did you make a mess?”
I started crying louder and the struggle came back but I could feel that the struggle was just spreading the mess underneath me. My wilting penis and all my spent seed slowly flowed to between her legs. I ground into her trying to escape the hairbrush but it kept finding targets all over my bottom. She moved to my sit spots alternating at first and then paying special attention to my right sit spot, then my left, and then, in case I wasn’t already sobbing loudly, she spanked me over and over again right on my crack above my anus. The burn radiated right between my cheeks. Then she was alternating again fast and hard. I was a mess by the time it was all over.
“OK, get up. Let’s see what kind of mess we have to clean-up.” I wasn’t ready to get up. She knew that. I wasn’t composed, the tears were still flowing and I was still sobbing. As I got to my knees, my penis pulled away from the sticky mess between her legs and though a lot stayed on her, big globs of cum coated my penis and testicles as well as all over my stomach. Of course, now I was a little boy. My manly penis was now tiny, pale and dripping. My testicles were coated with the very stuff that they used to contain. Not only that, but I was kneeling next to my wife crying. “Oh, look at this mess. I can’t believe you did this to me. Makes me want to spank you more if I thought I could stand more of you crying. Well, you made the mess, you clean it. Get down there and lick it up. Don’t look so surprised you boys always want women to swallow it. You do it. See if you like it.” I paused for a second and didn’t even see her raise her arm to spank me before the fire reignited. I burst into tears again and pleaded for her to stop. Then I was down with my face again between my wife’s legs licking my spend off her. It tasted less bad than I thought it would but I certainly wasn’t loving it.
“That’s enough. Go to your corner. No rubbing. No wiping your face. No cleaning up. You just stand there and think about what happened.”
I went to my corner and felt cum drip off my scrotum onto my legs. I was standing there for about fifteen minutes thinking when I started to get hard again. Just a little. After half an hour, I was released from my corner. I turned to face my wife with most of an erection ready to please her with. My bottom tingled as I walked to the bed where my wife lay naked and ready. She tapped the brush against her palm and asked, “you ready to try to please me?”
I mounted her and felt her reach around behind me and tap the brush against my bottom. Like a starting gun, the first crack got me moving. She set the tempo as I thrust into her. Just before she came, she stopped spanking me. I came again too shortly after her.
Monday, August 24, 2020
The Good Boy Spankings -- Preface
If you cannot understand this, have difficulty distinguishing fantasy from reality, or are in any way confused about what is appropriate and legal sexual expression, stop reading now.
Lastly, I am not a pedophile, don't approve of sexually assaulting children, and only use these themes in my writing because I empathize and identify with the victims of these stories; not the perpetrators. Some of us like to be embarrassed, ashamed, humiliated, spanked, and to be nervous, anxious, and afraid. Weird, right? To read more about why these stories were written, please see the "A Change To My Blog" post.Monday, December 17, 2018
Winky Has an Adventure
Winky Has an Adventure
I thought it would be fun to write a little story from a slightly different perspective. Sorry about all the dick pics. Enjoy!When we found out that she knew we had been naughty, he got all big and hard (he’s a grower and clearly not a show’er). But then we got naked and started driving and he got super shy.
I don’t know why he isn’t excited; It won’t be too long before he will get to make squirties just like a big penis. She’ll put down a towel under my pee-pee and if I concentrate super hard during my spanking and wiggle just right, the white sticky stuff will squirt out and for a couple seconds, the spanking won’t hurt at all! Afterward, though, it will hurt real bad and Winky will get even smaller than in the picture. She spanks with the hairbrush after Winky makes squirties because she says it is super extra naughty when the squirts happen. She hates it when I make my messes and I get extra spanks if any of it gets on her.
I hope he squirts out a big puddle today. The big ones usually feel really good. She sounded mad on the phone though like she is going to give me lots of spanking before I get to wiggle on the towel and probably a lot after my pee-pee makes his messy too.
I don’t like spankee time ‘cause it hurts my bottom but I really don’t like it when she makes me do squirties first or before most of my punishment. When my pee-pee is hard and full, she knows that hurts less than after he’s empty and soft again. Winky likes to wait too, I think; he always makes bigger puddles when I get most of my spanks before I do wiggles.
I have to put my towel under Winky before every spanking in case I have an accident or leak. He leaks sometimes like he is crying too.
She was mad at me for not shaving so I am getting extra spanks for having stubble when I got home. I had to get in the shower, shave, and then get some spanking on my wet bottom. That hurts real bad. She says that I am going to have more extra spanks later too.
She’s pretty mad because Winky made a mess in my pajamas while I was sleeping. I tried to tell her that it wasn’t my fault but that just made her angrier.
He sure gets hard during my spankings! Sometimes I even think my sticky stuff is about to squirt out.
For this spanking, I had to kneel next to the ottoman. She was using the paddle that makes both my cheeks bounce, jiggle, sting, and burn at the same time. Winky seems to like the paddle cause he gets super hard but I can almost never make squirties when he doesn’t touch anything. I still wiggle a lot but even though he is so hard and ready to make, he just bobs in the air right over my towel.
When he is all hard like this, it is like Winky thinks he is just like those big penises that get to have sexy time with girls. I don’t get to do that. She says that because my Winky is just a small pee-pee that squirts too quickly, he wouldn’t be able to make a girl feel good.
He makes a lot of the yummy slippery drips like he wants to be ready in case she changes her mind. Or maybe they are tears because he is so sad and frustrated. He wants it so bad and she won’t even touch him.
I’ve had a bunch of spankings and my bottom really hurts. She let me keep my squirts inside for all the spankings so far. I’ve been crying a little and little Winky leaked all over my towel and my legs too.
It is time to make squirties so I got to put my towel down on the bed and now when I get this next spanking, I might be able to wiggle a little. If I do it just right and concentrate really hard, Winky will tingle and I’ll be able to make my squirts.
She has the hairbrush. I’m scared of the hairbrush. My bottom is already very ouchy and the hairbrush is super ouchy too.
Winky made a messy! The spanks weren’t very hard while I was wiggling and so it wasn’t too hard to make. As soon as the squirts started though, I think she started spanking a lot harder. She didn’t stop until I was begging and crying.
She let me take a picture but I’m going to get my extra spanks now. I hate extra spanks.
Owwiee!! My bottom is on fire! My little winky got super small again now that he made a messy. The sticky stuff is all over my tummy too (but I didn’t take a picture of that). He didn’t make a big puddle today; I think he’s shy ‘cause of the camera. The tingles felt good though and it always feels good when he makes the squirts even if they are little ones like today.
It makes me sad that Winky gets me in trouble so that I have to have spankees. I wish he was a big penis so that we could make our squirts into a woman. He makes me dream about doing sex things that I’m not allowed to do.
I like being little again. I don’t think about sexy things when Winky is soft. For a day or two, I won’t think as much about naughty things. If I do, my ouchy bottom will remind we to think of something else!
I’ll be good today, but tomorrow the bad thoughts will start again and the day after, well, I probably won’t be able to think about anything else. In just a couple days, Winky won’t be able to stay small again and if she catches me big and hard or he makes naughty in my pajamas or if I am super naughty and play with Winky even a little bit, it will be spankee time again. I hope my bottom feels better by then.
Thanks for reading about Winky’s adventure!
Friday, January 5, 2018
Last Time
I was given spankings naked in the bedroom with a variety of implements. In between spankings, I would do a chore. We always start with the lexan paddle because it is a good warmup paddle with me draped over her lap. It is stingy and gets the blood flowing without being too intense.
The game for the night was that I was being spanked for having a naughty erection. This is mostly in my head; my wife doesn't mind spanking me but she doesn't care to participate in the fantasy. This turns out to work because she makes up her own storyline which seems to entertain her just fine. Anyway, I am naughty and need a spanking because I am too aroused to be at all good in bed; I would just squirt instantly, make a mess, and not satisfy her. So, I get a spanking to teach me to control my naughty penis.
After the warmup spanking, I was nicely erect and went to swap laundry or empty the dishwasher or whatever but when I was done with the chore, I wanted to present myself fully erect for my next spanking. So, after each chore that usually softened me up a little, I would hide in the hallway outside the bedroom and play with myself until I was very erect and even a little close to orgasm. I wanted to look like I was ready to pop when I presented myself for another spanking.
Another rule is that if I do have an accident, I always get a hard and fast spanking with the hairbrush paddle afterwards. Of course, eventually, I always have an accident and I always get a very painful dose of my most feared paddle. Thus, edging in the hallway is dangerous and I have to be careful but any spanking where my penis touches something is risky as well.
That night, I had a couple spankings standing next to the bed with my penis resting on my cummy towels (just in case). The first one was with a leather tawse and the second with a long frat style paddle. I almost had an accident both times. I love the idea of both of us seeing my naughty ejaculation as it happens during the spanking. Usually the hairbrush paddle is placed within reach wherever I am getting a spanking just in case a naughty accident happens.
I can't remember all the spankings but I think I was over her lap a couple more times getting a wooden spoon. I usually bend over an ottoman with my legs spread wide and my penis pointing down the side (very little stimulation that way) for some "detail" work with a wooden spoon as well.
At some point, my wife had put her favorite vibrator out on the bedside table charging. When I pointed at it, she said something about how I shouldn't have all the fun.
It was getting late and I was running out of chores so I said that I thought I might have an accident during my next spanking. This is code for "spanking me until I squirt". There are a couple positions where this works well. The easiest is over her lap so I can wiggle my way to a little squirt but standing next to the bed was working all night so I asked for that.
Next to the bed or a counter is tricky. My penis lays on my cummy towels but it doesn't really press down on them so it is light stimulation. She usually spanks me with the "Wal-Mart" spoon which is stingy and motivating but not withering. Sometimes she will "encourage" me with something heavier making me struggle to achieve my orgasm. The light stimulation is enough if the spanking isn't too intense but if she gets impatient, I have to really hump obscenely to get enough stimulation. I think she likes it when I have to struggle. I prefer when I just can't control myself and it sneaks up on me. I always have to ask for permission regardless, she always denies me, I aways try to obey, and I am always a naughty, disobedient little boy that makes a mess on the nice clean towels. Again.
Anyway, it took a little while and some strong encouragement. Just before I made my little messy squirts, I apparently did something or made some sound that she knows I make when I am about to pop and she switched to the hairbrush paddle as I begged to be allowed to make squirties. For a couple seconds, I enjoyed a powerful orgasm (yay, sometimes I just ejaculate), made a big messy on my towels, and then found myself laying facedown on the bed getting my bottom blistered. I tried to be brave but it hurt so bad I had tears in my eyes and handfuls of bedspread in my tightly clenched hands. I eventually started protesting and she asked if I had enough. I was very quick to affirm that yes, I had learned my lesson.
Sometimes when I get up, I am disappointed with my emission but that night I made not only a big mess on my towels but it was all over my stomach penis and testicles. Also, I had softened right up and my penis was small, pink, and coated with semen. It was hard to believe that my little penis could have made so much semen; it was like some other man had ejaculated on my genitals. Combined with the humiliating sting on my bottom, I really felt like a punished little boy.
I got cleaned up and showed my appreciation to my wife. She didn't end up needing the vibrator after all.
Monday, June 20, 2016
Too Soon
I have been waiting downstairs in the family room for the next part of my spanking. She had already given me a good long warm-up and then two harder spankings. One was with a big wooden paddle that stings a lot. I was bent over the edge of the bed and some pillows for that spanking. Then, after a little while, she used a big wooden spoon on my bottom while I was wrapped over an ottoman. Both of them were hard spankings. I was making all sorts of little boy 'ouchie' noises.
Those spankings were just warm-up for what was going to happen to me in the family room. My spanking time was going to end with her using the little hairbrush paddle while I humped and wiggled my way to a frustrating little orgasm over her lap. Of course, after that, it was going to be really painful but there is something that is so terrifyingly arousing about knowing that my spanking was going to really happen after those little squirts leave my penis.
Actually, it is exciting because what comes next is terrifying, terrible, and inevitable. The sting of that feared paddle makes my bottom jiggle, sting, and catch fire while I fight to have my few seconds of painful pleasure. Sometimes it is just a relief as my frustration oozes out of the little guy. Other times, it is like the pain and struggle heighten my orgasm. It builds as I fight for release and when it finally happens, it is explosive and momentarily blocks out the assault on my bottom. Of course, it is over in a blink of an eye as the burn building on my bottom suddenly invades my consciousness crushing out the pleasure, ruining my orgasm, and leaving me wrecked and writhing.
I had been sent down to wait in the family room after getting the spoon upstairs. The spoon is a precision instrument. Wherever it lands, bee stings emerge. I pulled out a bar stool to sit on while waiting. She likes to walk in and see me nervously sitting there with my hard penis poking up from my lap. The bee stings fading on my bottom woke up as I sat down on the stool. Pre-cum emerged from my excited little guy. The stings weren't terrible but more like reminders of what was coming up next.
I touched my pee-pee and, of course, it felt great. I like to gently fondle myself while waiting. I know I shouldn't and that accidents could happen but I like being so excited and right on the edge. My wife likes seeing my excitement and frustration when she walks in. Sitting on the bar stool makes me look even more like a little boy too. I have to sit up straight and probably because I am nervous, I always just keep my legs together. Of course, my testicles would be uncomfortably crushed between my thighs so I have to position my pink shaved scrotum on top of my legs. This makes my little penis look positively tiny as he just barely emerges from my lap. The head gets a bluish tint especially in this position as I sit rigid like a choir boy. Pre-cum squeezes out of the tiny slit and I can't help but get it on my fingers. I mean, I can't really stroke the shaft like this so I just play with the tip and the super sensitive spot on the underside right below the head that I can't seem to stop touching.
The funny thing is that sitting like this, it seems strange to even refer to the little guy by adult words like penis, erection, dick or cock. Even though he is erect, he is just a little pee-pee. I've read of people using words like dicklet or boy-clitty when talking about men with little penises. I don't think the guys attached to those little members are going to get their bottoms spanked like little boys. No, I have a pee-pee and though touching it feels good like a regular penis, little boys that get spankings just have little pee-pees. That's all. Maybe when I finally outgrow needing to get spankings I can graduate to a dicklet but for now, nope, just a little pee-pee poking up from my lap.
Steadily oozing pre-cum made my fingers all slippery. A little of that stuff goes a long way and more was coming out than was needed to lube me up. It is silly that my pee-pee wants to do big penis things.
She made me wait only a little while and I just absentmindedly played with myself the whole time. I was right near the edge which is nothing I haven't done before. Then I heard the footsteps in the hall and if she had come downstairs, everything would have have been fine. But she didn't. She walked into the kitchen first and I had just a little more time to play with my little guy and that extra little time combined with the knowledge that she was on her way right now was a little too much. I think she put something away in the kitchen and was coming back down the hall when I realized that my penis play had gone on too long. Suddenly, as she started down the steps, I started to squirt.
It didn't shoot all over because I'm not a shooter; I'm a drooler if anything. I snapped my hand away as if it would help stop the inevitable but semen just pulsed out and ran down my little guy. I watched in shock as I had a complete ejaculation in just seconds that made a huge mess all over my tight little scrotum.
The horror of the moment didn't detract from it being a thoroughly wonderful orgasm. In fact, perhaps the horror made it even better. The contractions made my bottom tingled where it had felt like bee stings before. Something about sitting with my legs tight together, back straight, prim and proper, made it feel different than normal too and different can be better sometimes.
Of course, unlike my wife's orgasms that seem to go on for minutes, mine was over before she even got down the stairs and the reality was setting in as she walked around the corner.
There was no point in hiding what happened and it didn't matter anyway. The spanking was going to happen. Though we both like me to squirm my way to my little squirts over her lap, she knows that if an accident happens before then that am I still supposed to get spanked with the dreaded little hairbrush paddle anyway.
"I'm sorry," I blurted before she even noticed what happened. "It was an accident. I couldn't help it," I added pointlessly.
"What?" she said before pausing as her eyes caught sight of my still twitching little guy squeezing out the last drops of semen. "Oh, well, I see. That is a surprise," she said a little taken aback. I was a real mess and she isn't one of those people that likes anything about semen. The sticky mess had flowed quickly down the underside of my pee-pee and over my tight scrotum before pooling up in a little puddle between my legs. I had to keep my legs tightly together or it would pour right onto the seat of the chair. I was happy that I was sitting on one of my towels.
"I'm sorry," I offered again. "It just happened," I added running out of things to say.
She paused for a second not sure what to do next. I could almost see her reading through the playbook looking for the correct response to this admittedly rare situation.
"Please," I whined. "Do I have to get a spanking now?" I asked leading her on. "I promise I didn't mean to make squirtees." I couldn't believe that I was staying in the game. I could probably get out of it. I mean, it was over, right? I had my little spanking and emptied all my sticky stuff all over myself. It had even felt good and I was embarrassed and humiliated just like always. My bottom was pretty worked over too. It was going to sting for hours more and I would even feel it tomorrow I'm sure. I think she would completely understand if we were done for the night. What was I doing this for?
I didn't know why, but I felt like I needed to push a little, "I don't need more spanking; it was just an accident. I'll be good. I promise it will never, ever happen again. I promise!" I said completely in character. My softening penis twitched and pulsed a little as it retreated.
She quickly seemed to remember the rule. Nodding she said, "no, baby, you still need a spanking. Get up, fetch the paddle and don't you dare make a mess."
It was done. This was going to happen and I finally understood why it had to happen: I needed it. The part of the spanking where I bravely take the pain and become a big boy again instead of a little baby hadn't happened. I need that but I also need to pay for my ill timed orgasm. What made it such a good little orgasm was knowing that those few seconds of pleasure were going to followed by a hard and thorough spanking. If I get away with it this time, then I won't be afraid next time and it won't be as good. It has to happen, I have to be made an example of even to myself. This is an example of what happens when little boys squirt all over themselves. Even though I made the rules, I can't break them.
Still feeling the afterglow a little, I started to get up and felt the stickiness all over my scrotum drip between my legs. So that I wouldn't drip on the floor, I grabbed my towel and held it against my crotch like a diaper as I stood up. The position must have looked pretty silly because I thought I heard my wife snicker a little as she turned and walked to the spanking chair. The little paddle was just on the bar where I had put it earlier so I didn't have to go far to fetch it. It is still always so awful having to bring her the paddle she is going to spank me with.
I have to say that the little walk to the chair was so much worse this time. Usually I have an erect penis just dying for release. He would lead me over to her like he was pointing the way. The start of the spanking meant that a squirt was about to happen and like Pavlov's dogs, he would drool in anticipation.
There was nothing good to look forward to today. My penis was shrinking fast and my bottom seemed swollen and sore already. I didn't want this spanking at all. My legs slid together lubricated by the slippery semen that had dripped between them. It felt sort of gross and it dawned on me that I was going to feel this lubrication as I kicked my legs during my spanking too.
I didn't really start to cry but I was feeling so sorry for myself that I was sniffling a little as I handed her the little ouchie paddle. She just nodded to her lap. I wanted to beg her not to spank me but I knew what I was supposed to say--what I had to say. "Please spank my naughty bottom really hard so that I learn to be a good boy," I whispered.
"Really hard?" she asked teasing me a little.
I paused, "yes, please. I was very naughty and, um, I, ah, need a good spanking," I stated quietly.
"OK, climb on over so I can blister your bottom," she said like an executioner to the criminal.
Keeping the towel in place was a little tricky but I climbed over her lap and kept it in place enough to keep my mess to myself. I wiggled into place but froze when I felt the cool wood tap my right cheek lightly. It was gone and then, well, then I got a real spanking. It wasn't at all like when I would get a spanking that would cause me to twitch and rub my sensitive penis on the towel. No, this was just stinging fire that was instantly blinding.
I was kicking and wiggling right away and my ouchie noises were louder than ever. I was sort of aware that she was alternating spanks between cheeks and that she was making sure everything was uniformly covered and on fire. Mostly I was just aware that the spanking was mind-erasingly intense. It seemed to last forever but it was probably only minutes later when she stopped. "Are you going to be a good boy now?" she asked.
"Ow, ow, owie," was all I could say as I tried to catch my breath and gather my thoughts. The spanking started again and I bucked and kicked wildly. I heard my own voice say "yes, yes, I'll be good!" loudly.
She stopped spanking me. "Are you sure?" she asked.
"Yes, ow, I won't..." and then I seemed to forget what I wouldn't do.
The spanking started again and she asked without stopping, "what won't you do again?"
I was falling apart. "I, ow, I won't, owie, no, owie, I won't make naughty squirties," I said hoping this was correct.
"OK," she said but kept spanking. "I hope you've learned your lesson, little boy. Now hold still for just a little more just to be sure."
The last little bit is just a blur but I remember it being hard and fast. I didn't stay still at all because I just couldn't. But then it really was over and her hand patting my bottom replaced the wood of the paddle.
"That's enough, for now," she teased. "Get up unless you want some more." I was off her lap in a flash. Of course, standing in front of her was no fun either. My brave erection was replaced by a soft little boy pee-pee and droopy testicles. Though the towel had absorbed most of my spillage, there was still some signs of my accident in the creases of my scrotum and between my legs. I was still shaking from the painful paddling. Tears were in my eyes and though I wasn't really crying, I felt like I looked, well, like a freshly spanked little boy. If I was smaller, I would have wanted to sit on her lap and hug her until she made me feel like everything was all better.
"Can, <sniff> can I have a hug," I asked softly. She nodded and I got on my knees, wrapped my arms around her, and buried my face in her neck. "Thank you for the spanking me," I said between sniffles. I wiped the tears in my eyes on her neck and hugged her tight.
Saturday, September 26, 2015
Self-spanking, Fleshlight, and Shame
Over the years, I have acquired a number of Fleshlights. These are basically male masturbation aids that are really quite fantastic experiences. I've had fun with them but not like some guys that do all sorts of unspeakable things with them. One of my favorite ways to play is to prop the "device" against a wall so that I have to hump it standing up. Of course, my favorite place is where there are mirrors so that I can watch myself over my shoulder. I like to watch how I have to hump the inanimate object and how I sort of convulse uncontrollably when I cum.
The dumb idea was to combine this with spanking myself. A while back, we tried having me stand at the bathroom counter facing the mirror while she spanked me. My erect penis rested on my cummy towels and I could hump the towels lightly while she blistered my bottom. The idea was that when I came, it would be more visible than when I squirt while over her lap. Perhaps it would be more dramatic, embarrassing, or even messy.
Anyway, it was a nifty idea but it didn't work out super great for a couple reasons. One was that I just didn't have enough downward pressure to create the necessary friction. Also, well, it just wasn't that dramatic. I was hoping to make a couple big squirts and then find myself unable to keep my spent member out of the puddle. I was hoping for a dramatic mess but instead it just drooled out like normal and I immediately shrunk leaving my little puddle sitting undisturbed.
The new idea was roughly the same thing except that I would put the Fleshlight on the counter instead of the towels. Then I would have something that would definitely provide enough stimulation for my little guy to work with while getting my bottom roasted.
I have several inserts depending on my mood. Some are just amazing while others are a little less intense and more suited for long edging sessions. To be honest, the real difference between intense and not so much is where all the good parts start; I'm not long enough to get to the good parts of some of them. I thought about how I would have to really pound on a low stimulation insert to get off but then decided that just being still in an intense insert would be delicious torture.
The problem is, however, that the one time my wife and I played with our respective toys together, she was, well, jealous of my Flashlight. She sort of liked it but didn't like seeing me screwing anything but her. This made me think that this was probably the sort of idea she wasn't going to go for but I decided that it would be interesting to try by myself anyway.
I decided on my favorite insert that gets me there super quick. I also decided on my little Lexan paddle to warm-up with and the hairbrush paddle to finish the job. I lubed up and sunk easily to my balls into the stimulating sleeve. Of course, it felt wonderful penetrating my pretend lover. I positioned myself at the counter holding the Fleshlight firmly on the counter with my left hand. Holding as still as I could, I did my best to self-spank myself with the Lexan paddle.
I tried not to move at all except to spank myself. This is actually tricky. Getting any sort of swing takes a certain amount of movement and each twitch in the sleeve easily eclipsed the sting on my bottom. I decided to switch to the wood paddle sooner than later.
Without a long warmup, the wooden brush was shockingly stingy right away. I rocked back and forth with the first couple swats and had no trouble enjoying the feeling of my penis attempting to fornicate with my inanimate lover. Looking down, I could see that I was completely buried in the perfect rubber vagina. Her glistening lips were stretched slightly around my little erection and appeared to be parted and sort of kissing my stomach. The cold of the counter against my scrotum contrasted dramatically with the warm wetness surrounding my desperate sex.
I tried to spank myself hard but anyone who has attempted self-spanking knows this is tricky. The body revolts against inflicting pain on itself. Still, I tried to light a fire on my own bottom alternating between cheeks and always trying to strike the sensitive sit spots. My bottom quickly had my attention and I decided to reward myself by humping a little when I took a spank directly on the crack. Left, right and then I pulled back a little, center, and back in. She accepted me lovingly and rewarded my bravery generously.
Again, left, right, and then center. Each center spank earned me a little thrust. The little thrusts, however, felt terrific and I realized my error: I wasn't going to last long. I was shaking trying to stay still and make it last and I spanked harder in a vain attempt to keep myself from going over the edge. Left, right, center, left, right, center, over and over.
I lost control and poured my seed into the vessel. She accepted it with only the slightest flexing of her perfect labia lips as I pumped out my semen. Immediately I had to stop spanking myself. With the desire gone so was my ability to accept the pain. I never want the spanking to continue after I squirt but when it does and I take the pain from my wife, I am always proud of myself afterwards. It is so important to me to be well punished after my little naughty selfish squirt. It is what renews me and resets my brain.
Instead, I stood there with my shrinking penis inside a masturbation aid unable to continue the punishment that I needed. Looking in the mirror I saw the mixture of post-coitus (fake-coitus) and shame. I pulled my still swollen but no longer erect penis out and it glistened in the harsh lights of the bathroom. The sensations that pushed me to my pre-mature ejaculation moments before were maddening torture as my penis retreated from its lover.
And that's it. I cleaned up, put everything away, got dressed, and went to work. I wish it had been a great experience and a suitable substitute to getting spanked by my wife but it wasn't. It was sort of fun masturbation, of course, and as orgasms go, it was awesome. But ejaculation during a spanking for me isn't about the pleasure but getting it out of the way so that I can truly feel the punishment.
Sunday, May 10, 2015
Spanking After Ruined Orgasm
Perfunctory. Functional. Efficient.
I am being manipulated towards an ejaculation. It won't be an orgasm or a complete orgasm anyway, but it will be enough for me to spill my seed, lose my erection, and not be sexually aroused anymore. Then she will spank me.
"Just a little more, I think," she says quietly like she is talking to herself.
Joyless. Mechanical. Necessary.
I was bad. It isn't important why, really. I get spanked for a bunch of things. Some are rules she has for me and some are rules I have for myself that she helps me keep. Today I spent some money on something for myself that I didn't really need and, well, we both don't think that is something I should be doing.
Sad. Disappointed. Duty.
Unfortunately I get excited by spanking. It is what gets me aroused even more than the thought of intercourse or oral sex. Those things are great, but if she wants me to cum faster, she doesn't have to do much more than playfully pat my bottom.
Indifferent. Dispassionate. Methodical.
I like getting play spankings and can even cum during the hardest ones. This makes punishing me with a spanking a challenge but a challenge overcome by simply relieving my arousal beforehand. She knows it hurts more after I've squirted away my excitement. I would very much rather have a big grown up erection and great big orgasm during my spanking. After I've had my little fun, I don't want it anymore and it just hurts. It is like my special present has been ruined.
"Please don't make me cum before my spanking," I plead. My adult penis protrudes obscenely from my hairless torso. It looks out of place on my thin and pale frame. It is engorged and darker in color and though completely normally sized and shaped, it appears to be the most adult part of me. In the mirror, I am embarrassed to see what could be a pre-teen boy with his fingers interlaced behind his head, twitching and humping.
"No, you won't appreciate your punishment if we don't take care of this first," she says with a note of disappointed resignation. She is just taking care of business, doing a task, solving her little boy's problem. She didn't sign up for this when she married me. Sure, she knew that I liked spanking but neither of us had thought about how hard it would be to punish me if I liked my punishment.
The little finger tip vibrator--an embarrassingly small device--gently caresses the underside of my throbbing erection.
Patient. Routine. Obligatory.
"Please," I hiss. It feels so good not just because she knows this is a very fast, effective, and efficient way to stimulate me to orgasm but because the idea of my impending spanking including the pain and humiliation but also the embarrassment of this situation is all making me a live nerve of sexual excitement.
She takes the vibrator away leaving me humping the air in front of her face. Looking up at my flushed face, she says "look, this isn't much fun for me either. You were naughty today and now we have to do this and then spank you. Maybe I wanted to have sex today. Did you think of that? But no, I can't have sex with a naughty boy. I have to spank a naughty boy after making him have his little cum so he won't enjoy it.
"Now, stop whining. Stop begging. Hurry up and let's get this over with."
Then, focusing back on my engorged member, she carefully finds my special place with the vibrator again. I gasp in spite of myself. I shouldn't be enjoying this as much as I am. If she could find an easier and quicker way to make me orgasm, I'm sure she would do it. We've learned that this gets the job done very effectively because it is so pleasurable to me.
When it first was apparent that I needed to be punished sometimes, I would cum during my spankings. After a couple of those, she made me go masturbate in the bathroom first before my spankings. She liked how much I didn't want a spanking when I came out but after a while she started to think I was enjoying myself in the bathroom too much and she made me jack-off in front of her. That is when she realized that she should take matters in her own hands if she was going to make sure I wasn't enjoying the process too much.
At first, she would give me a perfectly acceptable hand job. Then she made me buy a ribbed sleeve but she didn't like how much I liked it. She did a little research and learned that the trick was to ruin my orgasm by stopping before I actually ejaculated. The sleeve made that tricky so she started experimenting with vibrators. The bigger ones were almost too effective at making me cum quickly and she couldn't keep me from having satisfying orgasms. This little fingertip model was enough to get me there but not enough to create a huge orgasm.
Professionally. Skillfully. Persistently.
The little vibrator gently coaxed me to an involuntary orgasm. The little paddle lay on the bed to the right of my seated wife. She held my underwear--panties, really--in her left hand ready to catch whatever spilled out of me. I shivered and twitched. If I could remain perfectly still, maybe she wouldn't notice that I was about to cum and it would be a little more satisfying. She missed the signs a couple times and accidentally allowed me to squirt before taking away the stimulation.
But, then I screwed up like I almost always do and forgot to breath regularly. She knew I was close. Just a little more and then all she did was switch hands taking the vibrator away and putting my panties directly under but not touching me.
I was completely and majestically erect when I experienced just the shadow of an orgasm. A soft frustrated "noooo" escaped me as I started to twitch and pump vainly. There was no impressive squirting, just a dribble of white semen bubbling out of the tip and dripping onto the underwear I'd be wearing after my spanking. It was so close but not quite enough. Immediately, my erection started to wain and sag as I whimpered and wiggled in frustration. Just a little more was all I needed.
She waited until it was over before speaking. "All done?" she asked coldly. I just nodded. "OK then, time for spanking," she said putting down the vibrator and picking up the paddle. "Over you go," she command nodding at her lap.
Carefully she placed my soiled undies under my penis as I lay over her to catch any leakage still remaining in my softening penis. I was whimpering like a scared dog the whole time. "Oh hush," she said annoyed. "You will have plenty to cry about in a minute."
I was reminded immediately that spankings hurt. There wasn't much of a warmup before she was in full swing and I was just trying to not be a huge baby about the thing. She did a little lecturing but never stopped spanking or even asked me to respond. There was stuff about not buying things I don't need and something about how I should ask first. She covered all of my bottom and then just worked on the sit spots until my fight was gone.
I'm not allowed to recover over her lap after punishment spankings. It was done as fast as it started. She barked for me to stand up and when I didn't move fast enough, the brush connected with my upper thighs a couple times to get me going.
I brought my underwear up with me as I stood up. I learned this the hard way early on when my stickiness and wiggling caused them to stick enough to my penis to pick them up but not enough to hold them there. They fell off and landed sticky side down which was bad.
I held my little panties to my groin as I stood up and then pulled them away, turned them right side out, and without being told, I put them on. My spanking panties are delicate and little. Fully erect, I pop out the top but as a flaccid, chastised little boy, I fit perfectly. They are tight around my stinging and swollen bottom. The little bit of elastic cuts into my cheeks. Around the front, the lilac nylon is practically transparent in places where my semen is still wet.
"Very pretty," she says smiling at last. I sniffle and stare at my feet. "OK, that's enough. Get some clothes on and take me to dinner."






